I am CC and i am 19 years old a senior in High School, I am a leadership ASB member at my school. I have a lot of friends and people like me and people hate me. I use to be anorexic when i lived with my grandma back in 7th to 9th grade. she is constantly work out everyday none stop and eat very little. when i lived with her she made me work out and only eat fuits and peanuts for lunch and dinner..no breakfast. I was a chubby kid and she reminded me how fat i was every minute of my life. i dropped weight to please her but in her eyes and mine i was still fat. I was maybe 150 and dropped to maybe 85lbs in 8th grade. I moved back in with my mom and sister but i still hated food, because it would make me fat. my mom took me to get help from the doctor and he told me i had anorexia nervosa and that i needed to gain weight. i did but too much of it though. my mom was very angry with my grandma for doing this to me that we stopped keeping contact with her. but last year we came into contact with her again and visited her. she said nothing to my over weight body standing at 5 ft 4 inches and 180lbs later until we got to Denny's. i really dont want to go into that atm but it was bad. now 1 year later i am 175lbs and fucking miserable. yes i have friends but no boyfriend. i consistently have to see everyone around me with a boyfriend or girlfriend happy. that shit stops now, i will have a prom date by may 2011. i swear by it.
Height: 5 feet 4.5 inches
highest weight: 180lbs
current weight: 175lbs
goal weight week 1: 165lbs
ultimate goal weight: 115lbs
recently came out of recovery and was at my most all time high of 235. already back down to 214 but still have 70 lbs to go...
if I could be below 150 i would be the most thankful person in the world...
looking for some support buddies, texting or e-mail something like that...
peace out girl scouts.
hmm im like the firstpost here sooo..
lets get this started.
i need help.
40lbs off atleastt. .. Current Mood: aggravated